Friday, 4 April, 2008

Confessions of a broken heart

Wikipedia: A broken heart (or heartbreak) is a common metaphor used to describe the intense psychological pain one feels after losing a loved one, through death, divorce, or other means as in breaking up with someone or having your partner move away.

  • A perceived tightness of the chest, similar to an anxiety attack
  • Stomach ache and/or loss of appetite
  • Partial or complete insomnia
  • Anger
  • Shock
  • Nostalgia
  • Apathy (loss of interest)
  • Feelings of loneliness
  • Feelings of hopelessness and despair
  • Loss of self-respect and/or self-esteem
  • Medical or psychological illness (e.g. depression)
  • Suicidal thoughts (in extreme cases)
  • Nausea
  • Denial
  • Fatigue
  • The thousand-yard stare

The title of this blog entry may be a song sung by Lindsay Lohan, but it is also a feeling that I am going through currently.

What happens when you're in love, when you feel like being with the person forever, when you feel like nothing can go wrong -- but everything just falls down?

  • You wake up with terrible heart ache, the kind that just wont go away.

  • You'll stare at your phone for hours, wondering if he'll leave a message.

  • You stare at the wall, mindlessly, blankly..with no thoughts coming to mind.

  • You'll cry for hours and hours, till your eyes swell to the size of golf balls, and you can cry no more.

  • You'll tell yourself you'll move on, when you know you cant.

  • You'll be hopeful that it will all change, that he will tell you he misses you and wants to get back with you.

  • You'll think it's just a bad dream, and you are waiting to wake up.

  • You'll try to immerse yourself in work, but your attention always goes back to him.

  • You'll feel like a part of your soul has been ripped apart, there is a feeling of emptiness.

  • You're numb.

  • You're lonely.

  • You're sad.

  • You're just not yourself.

How I wish breaking up was easy. For him, as well as for me.

Wait, if I am wishing for something, why not wish we never broke up at all?

I'm trying to move on. It's truly the hardest thing I've ever done. I wish it didn't happen. But it did..

I can't think of what to write anymore. I wish I knew. I wish.


Zii said...

Iodex maliye,
kaam pe chaliye.

Prabhu Dutta Das said...

It shall pass!

Sonu said...

Just hang in there.. i know exactly what u goin thru, cuz me goin thru the same..
time heals everything..

tHe_NeW_cYnIc said...

Yes its strong& hold on!

Rashmi Yadav said...

hmmmmmmmmmmm very true i've felt the same symptoms [:(]but its ok if thr's a past m sure thr'll be a future too....just wait n watch!!!

anila said...

So hmmm finally cud come out of or not......u say

Josette said...

Oh yeah, having a broken heart sucks. Big time. Seems like it'll go on forever.

Take care of yourself though. Pray. It works for me. =)

Iggy said...

Thank you everyone. Advice helps (Even the Iodex one!)