Wednesday, 30 April, 2008


Standing under the lamp post
Boy, it's dark.
The only light around
Is the light that shines from my heart.

Can you hear me?
Wait, I'll call you back again.

Walking along the stony footpath
Leeches and maggots and dead flies.
Squelch. Squelch.

The stench of death
Drifting through the air.
I cover my nose
Fruity undertones masking it out.

Beelzebub standing in the corner
Smiling his wicked smile.
Stretches out his hand
He's waiting for me.

I have waited for you for so long
Where have you been?
I've been right here baby
Now let's go eat.

Saturday, 12 April, 2008


I don't really know what to write but felt like writing, so I am writing.

You're under no obligations to read this.

But now that you are, tell me something about yourself? What is your name? What do you do? What political party do you support? Does your hobby include juggling midgets? Do you like Chinese food? Do you believe in Global Warming? Do you like water? Bisleri or Aquafina? Do you have a printer? How do you feel when it refuses to print when it runs out of ink you don't even want to use? Do you like taking photographs? How much money do you spend on an average day? Do you like crocs? What is your view on considering "The Simpsons" a religion? Do you own a cell phone? Does it vibrate? Do you like it? Do you think orkut should be renamed whorekut, and facebook renamed slutface? Are you still reading this? Why?

So yeah..don't have anything to say.
Peace out y'all!


Friday, 4 April, 2008

Confessions of a broken heart

Wikipedia: A broken heart (or heartbreak) is a common metaphor used to describe the intense psychological pain one feels after losing a loved one, through death, divorce, or other means as in breaking up with someone or having your partner move away.

  • A perceived tightness of the chest, similar to an anxiety attack
  • Stomach ache and/or loss of appetite
  • Partial or complete insomnia
  • Anger
  • Shock
  • Nostalgia
  • Apathy (loss of interest)
  • Feelings of loneliness
  • Feelings of hopelessness and despair
  • Loss of self-respect and/or self-esteem
  • Medical or psychological illness (e.g. depression)
  • Suicidal thoughts (in extreme cases)
  • Nausea
  • Denial
  • Fatigue
  • The thousand-yard stare

The title of this blog entry may be a song sung by Lindsay Lohan, but it is also a feeling that I am going through currently.

What happens when you're in love, when you feel like being with the person forever, when you feel like nothing can go wrong -- but everything just falls down?

  • You wake up with terrible heart ache, the kind that just wont go away.

  • You'll stare at your phone for hours, wondering if he'll leave a message.

  • You stare at the wall, mindlessly, blankly..with no thoughts coming to mind.

  • You'll cry for hours and hours, till your eyes swell to the size of golf balls, and you can cry no more.

  • You'll tell yourself you'll move on, when you know you cant.

  • You'll be hopeful that it will all change, that he will tell you he misses you and wants to get back with you.

  • You'll think it's just a bad dream, and you are waiting to wake up.

  • You'll try to immerse yourself in work, but your attention always goes back to him.

  • You'll feel like a part of your soul has been ripped apart, there is a feeling of emptiness.

  • You're numb.

  • You're lonely.

  • You're sad.

  • You're just not yourself.

How I wish breaking up was easy. For him, as well as for me.

Wait, if I am wishing for something, why not wish we never broke up at all?

I'm trying to move on. It's truly the hardest thing I've ever done. I wish it didn't happen. But it did..

I can't think of what to write anymore. I wish I knew. I wish.